I often wonder...am I too deep?
I had a conversation with a friend not too long ago. He asked me to describe myself and my response was, "Most people tell me I'm tremendously deep, and I think that's probably true."
Later on in the conversation I said something about my relationship with God. With wide eyes he said, "Wow. That's really deep." I could tell he was being serious, but I couldn't undestand why.
"That wasn't actually very deep for me at all," I said. Hehe. It's a shame, really. I would love to have more profound and deep conversations than I already do, but they also need to be with the right people and at the right time.
I'm not really meaning conversations about theology or philosophy or whatever. I just like talking about God, really. I don't really want to figure out the theology behind Him, if I'm honest. I just want to talk about Who He is and what He does. I want to talk about the things He's spoken to me about, and the deep and intimate relationship I've found with Him. I mean, theology and philosophy are alright and they do have lots to do with this stuff, but...I don't want to pick it apart anymore using some weird mind process. I just want to say things the way they are. I just want to be honest and I don't even need to be sentimental. Just...honest. Am I making sense?
Here is the ultimate jist of it all, though. Life...everything...it's all wrapped up in God. That's something I want to share with people. God does live among the pots and the pans, as Brother Lawrence once talked about (thanks for that conversation Peter). God is in the stuff of life, around every corner, seeping in to the food we eat. Yet we treat Him as if He's cold and distant. No! He's not! It's funny, really, because over the past few years the times when I should have felt most distant from God, I didn't. I always felt like He was with me and I with Him...we were still together, hanging out, talking, chatting, sharing. God is real to me. It's pretty awesome. Is God real to you?
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- court danielson
- I am twenty something and I enjoy writing. When I grow up, I will have accomplished something, though no one is sure what.
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Court, it's a joy as always to read your thoughts."God walks among the pots and pans." I love that line. I could have sworn it was Teresa of Avila who said it, though. I wrote a poem starting from that sentence last January when I first heard it. The poem is less about the meaning of the sentence than where it could go. Here's the poem:
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God walks among the pots and pans
God walks among the pots and pans,
The loaf of bread and yesterday’s dahlias.
He clambers up the stack of clean dishes
And down its other side.
He barely glances at the forks and spoons,
Hurries by the half stick of butter,
Ducks behind the toaster, and emerges
Near the sugar dish. Being God,
He lifts the ceramic lid easily
And vaults in among the white and grains
Where it is sweet and dry
And the walls admit no sound.
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